How much does the environment you grew up in affect your life? Do you feel like you can honestly and authentically share your beliefs, opinions, and values? Or are you holding yourself back because of fear of judgment and being misunderstood?
I thought about this today while I posted some astrology stuff on my Instagram profile. I have a lot of followers from my high school days and people that I knew before I moved to LA. Back then, I wasn’t interested in spirituality and didn’t know much about things like astrology and meditation. I wondered what these people would think about me after reading this.
You see, I grew up in Germany for the majority of my life. Back then, I followed the rules of the status quo and lived a pretty ordinary life within the lines of society. I did what I thought was the “right thing:” I studied in hopes that I would find a good, stable job. I was taught the importance of financial security and was advised to never ask for “more”. I had no idea about the potential that was waiting for me outside of those lines. Deep down I knew that there must be more available to me. More fun. More love. More joy. More excitement. More abundance. More fulfillment.
Only once I made the bold move to move my life to a different continent, did all of these miracles start showing up. Over the last 6 years, I have been introduced to life coaching, astrology, the healing power of plant medicine, yoga, spiritual psychology, mindfulness, and meditation. I was drawn to these things. I had never planned or knew that these things would actually resonate with me. These things kept knocking at my door and the more I immersed myself, the more they made so much sense to me. I found relief and inner peace. I could literally feel a shift inside of myself on a cellular level. It was insane!
I feel so blessed to have been introduced to some of the greatest mentors, teachers, thought leaders, and healers since moving to LA. I feel that I have come to a point in my life where I want to share my experiences and lessons with others. These teachings, tools, and techniques have done so much for me and I want other people to benefit from that as well.
Sometimes, I think about the people that have known me from my early days, and I am sure that many of them think I’m crazy. I have found that this thought doesn’t even bother me anymore. It actually amuses me. As a former people pleaser and a trying-to-fit-in-other-people’s- boxes kind of person, this is such a huge accomplishment for me.
See, the more you learn about your truth and you anchor in on that, acting in alignment with it, there is such a sense of inner peace and confidence that comes with it. I want every single person in this world to get to that place within themselves because it’s the most beautiful and freeing thing.
One thing that’s allowed me to get to that place (which btw is not always easy to maintain. I still feel myself getting triggered and wanting to be liked or understood by other people. But I know now that this is part of the journey and don’t judge myself for this) is that I’ve always followed my heart and my intuition. Whenever something just felt right, I would act upon it. Even if I didn’t exactly know why or where it would take me – I just trusted. For a lot of people, making decisions about important things from our heart feels weird and risky sometimes. That’s because we’re not used to that. Growing up, we were trained to make decisions based on the things that are logical or make the most sense. But from my experience, whenever I’ve taken that (perceived) risk to do the things that feel right, the most amazing things have happened.
So some of the questions you can ask yourself to connect to your own inner truth:
Who are the people that have the biggest impact on your life? Are they supportive or do you feel like you have to hold yourself back so that they don’t get triggered / you don’t get judged?
Where am I ready to stop pretending?
How can I honor my truth?
What am I ready to let go of (habits, thoughts, limiting beliefs, people)?
Take out your journal and reflect on those questions for a little bit.
If you need more support, know, I’m always here for you!